That I must have blocked the pain from last years deployment. I knew it was going to be bad, but no where NEAR the amount of pain I'm feeling right now. I was doing so great too. I sat next to him. I held his hand. I laughed and talked and as soon as they called his flight to board, I totally lost it. I walked him to the security check and then I hugged him and I couldn't let go. I couldn't stop crying and I knew I was only making it worse for him, but there was not an ounce of will power inside of me that was going to make me stop.
I know the first weeks suck, but I didn't expect this. I hurt so bad. My heart hurts. I want my husband. I want him home.
i'm sorry you are hurting chrissy. i'll be thinking of you and praying for you. God can provide peace...i know it!
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