I just feel so lost right now. I feel so hurt. I just feel incomplete. I want him so bad. I just want to stop hurting. I want my heart to stop hurting.
My neighbor has a massive sign in her tree that says "Welcome home!" and she decorated her porch with red white and blue lights. It's so amazing. It's just so wonderful that her husband is home and she gets to see him again. ...I just...I just wish it were me.
I didn't get to talk to him yesterday because he lost track of the days and forgot to call. I don't get to talk to him unitl my next day off, which is Friday. I hate that it's so far away. I hate that I feel like I never get to talk to him. I never know what's going on with him, and I don't get to tell him what's going on with me. I feel isolated and alone. I feel lost and I just can't stop hurting.
It will be ok Chrissy I promise! *hugs* I know I'm far away but I am always here for you if you need someone to talk to. One day at a time...believe me I know it's hard but just breathe. Everything will be alright and before you know it Jordan will be home!
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