So my mom is at my sisters house in California. And I hate it. Well, okay. Hate is too strong a word. I really really don't like it. Mostly because I'm jealous. I'm definitely not ashamed to admit when I am jealous of some one. And currently, it's my sister. She has always been better at everything than me and I feel like ever since she had Jared, my mom has inadvertently chosen who she likes more. Don't get me wrong. I adore Jared. I'd do anything for that kid I love him so much. It just makes me mad because I haven't had a kid yet and it's just not fair.
Yeah I know I sound like a 5 year old. But it just makes me sad. I've always been jealous of Joana and my mom certainly doesn't help things.
Jordan comes back from his trip tonight. I'm glad. I've missed him so very very much.
I am so sorry. I feel so selfish. I was just thinking how hard it was going to be for me and I didn't think about anything else. I am not better at you at everything (maybe at math) but you are so much stronger than I am. I admire you so much. I like how you live life. You are so carefree. I worry too much about everything.
ReplyDeleteIt's Joana. I can't use my google account and anonymous is the only one it would let me use.
ReplyDeleteI just saw this comment, Jo. I really appreciate it. I miss you so much sometimes, but I always worry that you're too busy to talk to me or that I'm bothering you. I'll try to call more often. Ant this post is so selfish. I know that you never ever get to see William and it's probably so hard having to raise Jared virtually as a single mom. I could never imagine that. I shouldn't be jealous of you. I should be supportive. I'm so sorry Jo.
ReplyDeleteI miss you. I love you.