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I found a prayer journal that I kept back in 2007. I've been reading it thouroughly and noticing the changes in myself from that year and today. Most of them are negative. Every sentence, every paragraph, most of it is all about other people. Jordan, my parents, my classmates, random people who I didn't even know. Praying for their strength and their faith. Praising God for being such a loving and caring God, Thanking Him for blessing me.The openness and willingness to completely sumbit to God's will no matter what outcome. It's actually touching. I prayed about everything, every little whim that struck me. "

Thank you Lord for giving me another day; another breath; another moment; to love You,"

-3-26-07

Just such devotion, such outright selflessness. That is who I want to be. THAT is who I need to be. Somehow I need to find that girl again.