I haven't posted in FOREVER.
Halloween was really fun. I went to a few parties, but I had to work on Halloween night, so I didn't really get to give out much candy, not like there was much left. The picture I posted is from Saturday night. It's one of the very few pictures taken that night that I actually remember lol
Jordan leaves Kosovo tomorrow, or so he says. I still don't have flight times or anything. Everyone wants me to be excited about his homecoming, but I can't force myself to be. I'm so stressed out. What will I be like when he comes home? Will I be a bitch to him? Will I try to be nice? Will he be different? Will he be the same? What if he expects me to forget about this summer? How am I supposed to deal with that? I'm just so worried that his coming home will make everything worse, I can't focus on being excited. It doesn't help that I'm not really attracted to him anymore.
Halloween was really fun. I went to a few parties, but I had to work on Halloween night, so I didn't really get to give out much candy, not like there was much left. The picture I posted is from Saturday night. It's one of the very few pictures taken that night that I actually remember lol
Jordan leaves Kosovo tomorrow, or so he says. I still don't have flight times or anything. Everyone wants me to be excited about his homecoming, but I can't force myself to be. I'm so stressed out. What will I be like when he comes home? Will I be a bitch to him? Will I try to be nice? Will he be different? Will he be the same? What if he expects me to forget about this summer? How am I supposed to deal with that? I'm just so worried that his coming home will make everything worse, I can't focus on being excited. It doesn't help that I'm not really attracted to him anymore.
Don't worry so much about what we think you should be feeling. You are your own person. Thus, what you feel you will feel- not what we say you should feel. I don't blame you for feeling stressed over his coming home- and wondering what reactions you will have (or how you will act towards/around him). I know it'll be hard when he gets home cuz you two will have to readjust again- and finally work thru some of the issues (hopefully)... I'm here for ya anytime you wanna vent or talk about stuff. Marriage is actually a two way street (which you both knew before getting married). It's hard work- I'm learning that about marriage myself as I go too (it may not seem that way). I love ya and have a great day! That's my two cents- you can take it or leave it... :-) Up to ya... I won't mind either way.
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