I'm emotionally, physically, and financially drained.
Emotionally
My husband is vacationing in Turkey. He didn't ask how I felt about it. He didn't tell me about it until right before he left. I really thought that we were going to work on our relationship this weekend. I really thought that we were going to break some communication barriers and we were going to actually start working on "us". Then, out of the blue, he basically says, "Hold that thought, I'll be back on Sunday," and then he was gone. This was yesterday. He'll be gone all weekend and I'm just supposed to pause my feelings while he's on vacation? How can he expect that from me? Ah well, without going into too much detail, I'm just so emotionally drained from dealing with all of this shit.
Physically
I had a day off Monday and my next day off is Sunday, the day I'm throwing a baby shower, so I have been going and going and going all week long and I won't get a break until Sunday. I just feel like I've been constantly moving and I haven't been sleeping well either. I'm just really physically exhausted from it all.
Financially
Jordan's car had it's first major maintanance (30,000 miles) and I took it to the Subaru dealership to get it done. I was talking to the guy there and he gave me a rough estimate of the price. I'll tell you what, my jaw hit the ground. See, what's frustrating about it is, it's not my car, so I was really very torn about what to do. Jordan has always taken his car to the dealership to get any work done, but I know that he would hate how much the service was going to cost. He's in Turkey, so he's completely unavailable to consult. It was my call. I paid for the service, all seven hundred and thirty dollars of it, and if he has anything to say about it, then he should have told me previously. He took out some money to have in Turkey, and the house payment came out yesterday, so our bank account is just being sucked dry.
Just like me.
i so feel your car troubles...it seems that everytime our bank account gets a little money in it the car breaks down (or we get sick and have to go to the doctor). in any case it feels horrible to spend such a large amount of money at one time!
ReplyDeletesorry you're having a rough time. e-mail if you ever need to just get something off your chest.
Sounds like you need a mini-vacation... I understand the money being taken out of account to be used on things like that though and feeling so broke. Zach's car has been in the shop at least twice or three times already this year. I hope you get to talk with Jordan soon and that he listens (actually hears you out about your feelings).
ReplyDeleteWhen you get a chance, borrow a book from the library called "The 5 Love Languages" by Gary Chapman. It's actually a really good book about the different love languages people have and how to meet their needs. I don't know if you've read that book yet. I thought it was pretty interesting concept.