Oh dear

What have I gotten myself into?


That's a question I've been finding myself asking quite often in my head lately. With my new job at Petsmart, and my church's expectations of me becoming this grand new youth leader. I have no idea what to do.

First of all, what people need to understand is that I do not handle leadership responsibility well. "Well" is an overstatement. When in actuality, leadership roles have a tendency to send me into a bathroom stall crying. Not pleasant.

Second, is that this is my first actual job. Petsmart cashier is my official title and I must say I'm pretty proud of myself. I still have to get used to alot of things about working, but I am getting used to it and things are going good. Time and experience is all I need right now, and I have confidence in myself that I can be a good employee. Jordan has faith in me too. That's also, very comforting.

I didn't get to talk to him today. That was very disappointing. I really miss hearing his voice. It feels like it's been ages since I've heard it, even though it's only been days. I have hopes that he will be able to call me tomorrow after church.

I got a notice on my front door handle from the housing community that runs base housing. They gave me 48 hours to weed my front garden before their next inspection. Another question I have: "What are they going to do about it?" Are they going to boot me out because I didn't weed my garden? That seems a bit extreme.

I must admit, thought, the front garden is a little out of hand. However, it's not full of the type of weeds you can just pull out. Its more like pulling each individual stalk of grass out of your yard! I just wish that the housing company at least offered some sort of lawn care, even if we have to pay, to take care of our private gardens. At least when our husbands are gone. Jordan's job is to weed the garden and cut the backyard. What am I supposed to do while he's gone? I don't even know how to use a weed whacker!

This is just a very frustrating situation. I'll have to ask Jordan if he has any ideas. I hope you all have a good day, or week anyway. With love,

Chrissy