April 27, 2009, People.
The day Jordan got on that damn bus. The day I drove home and for the first time in my life, I was alone, completely for the first time, independent. I had to shop for myself, feed myself, entertain myself and pay for myself. In a way, it's a misnomer, because while I felt independent, my military ID would tell you,(with a big fat "Dependent" printed on the front of it), that I wasn't. I still felt independent anyway, and it's probably the only time I'm ever going to be truly alone.
Think about it though. Until I was 17, I lived under my parents roof. From there, I went directly into living under my husbands roof. I never had that transition time that most people have, when they go to college, party hard, live on their own for a while, find the right guy, then get married. I skipped that chapter in the book of life. I went right to the marriage chapter. Not that I regret it, because I don't. I love Jordan. It's just I've never lived on my own before. This is the first, and if you think about it, probably the last. The next deployment will probably be in two years. In two years, there's a very good possibility that I might have a child. When you have a kid, I don't think that counts as "alone". After that, Jordan's out, and I never have to deal with a deployment again, thank God.
Do I like it? Being alone? I'm not sure, actually. I guess I don't not like it, but it's not great, either. On the plus side, I get to stay up whenever I want, wake up whenever I want, watch whatever I want on TV, eat whatever I want, go anywhere I want, whenever I want to go there, and I have the whole computer to myself. At first it was pretty amazing. Now that I've gotten used to it, I'm not so sure. I also have to pay the bills, service the car, weed the garden, mow the backyard, get a job, not to mention that Jordan-shaped empty spot in the bed next to me at the end of every day. Yeah that part sucks.
So this is my independence. I'm embracing it, the bad and the good. I'm learning from it. I'm learning a lot of stuff actually.
- Zip ties and duct tape can fix very nearly anything
- Puzzles are an excellent way to waste hours of your life.
- DVR is a gift from God. There are just too many shows, impossible to watch at one time.
- Keys go in my purse. NOT in the fridge or pantry where I'll look for them for hours, not remembering where I put them.
- When you run out of glasses, DO NOT drink from bowls. Do the damn dishes.
- When you run out of clothes, DO NOT wear Jordans. Do the damn laundry.
- Give Lexi chew toys or she will use your favorite pumps for her chewing pleasure.
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