If I Lay Here

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden
That's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden
That's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes
They're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things
Will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?

-Snow Patrol


I want to share a memory with you. A memory that has to do with this song. Two years ago, I was laying in the back of my pick-up truck with my boyfriend. We were wrapped in a wool blanket and we were looking up at the stars. Crickets were chirping in the background and the air smelled fresh, crisp. It was the air of a perfect autumn night. The radio was on. And this song was playing. When I closed my eyes I felt the words of this chorus touch my soul.

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?

Because I knew at the time, that my boyfriend was leaving in a week to go to boot camp and I was going to be alone. At that moment I started crying because I realized what was going to happen to my life, that this was only the beginning of the many tears that I would be shedding for this reason, and that it was already too late to turn back. I also knew that I was holding the greatest thing that was ever going to happen to me; that no matter how much pain I went through, it was going to be worth it because of him. I felt my love for him and that it was going to be okay.
To this day, every time I hear that song, I will always think about the two of us laying in the back of my truck listening to it and wanting nothing more than that peaceful moment to last forever.