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Yesterday was a joyous day in my cousins life. Her husband returned from a 7 month deployment in Iraq. She called me because she couldn't sleep and we talked well into the night. While I am overjoyed for my best friend and her happiness, I can't really lie and say I'm not overwhelmingly jealous. What's odd is, I wasn't expecting to be. I'd known William was coming home for a while and I expressed nothing but joy for Jo. It was the day that he came home, when I realized that I had lost my best friend that the jealousy began to sink in. I miss Jordan. I wish I could have him like Jo has William. I'm also not selfish enough to bother her while she's with him, so the person that I have talked to every day for the past few months is temporarily unavailable. It hurts. I feel really alone. I feel more alone than I have in a long while. I miss my husband and now I miss my best friend.