Progress

I am making progress.

One of my goals for myself while J is gone is change my lifestyle. Like I've turned everything completely around. I threw away all of the food that J and I had and I'm starting fresh. I'm creating better habits in myself and in turn, will improove myself physically, and mentally. If I'm out working out instead of curled up crying in bed, then I'm channeling that sadness and pain into something useful, something beneficial for me.

One of my friends and I started a new workout plan and we're going to hold each other accountable each week and help each other and support each other while we're handling missing our husbands.

I've never been this legit about myself being healthier. I'm very excited. Especially now that I have a friend that's just as committed as me.

I've heard from him twice since he left and it's still hard to hear his voice. I still miss him so much and I still cry a little. I can't wait until things settle down into a routine and I can talk to him on a daily basis