So I've recently befriended a young marine fiance here on Blogger and reading through her posts, reading through her thoughts and feelings gave me a wave a nostalgia. She's so on fire for her Marine. She's so passionate about her man and her Corps. She's so moto. You know, I used to be that way.
This is a picture of me and my best friend in high school. Note the USMC sweater and matching headband. This was my daily attire, I assure you. I flaunted my USMC sweatshirt as much as I could.
And this is one of the many letters I wrote to Jordan during bootcamp. I would write these letters every free chance I had during classes. This letter is important specifically because it marked our first anniversary together.
Little things like that during school, after school, being completely and totally "Oorah" for the Marine Corps. is what made my relationship with Jordan so unique from everyone elses. I was engaged to a Marine. I may not have realized at the time what that meant. lol let me correct that. I DEFINITELY did not realize at the time what that meant. Being a marine wife sounded nothing but glorious to me. "Sure we are going to have troubles, but we'll get through them together," I didn't realize at the time that it just isn't as simple as that.
I guess as the reality of being a Marine wife sank in, my "moto"ness, started to fade a little:
- My first true deployment. Not knowing if he was okay, praying to God to bring him home.
- Long hours at work, coming home frustrated sometimes and irritable.
- The first time you hear that one of your friends husbands is dead and the shame of feeling grateful that it wasn't yours.
And going through what we went through this last summer. I wasn't sure we were going to make it through that...
But you know what? I am still a Marine wife. And if anything, the moments that I struggle with my "moto"ness, are the moments that should make me even prouder of my husband and what he does. So I'm going to take my experiences as they come, and I'm going to use them to try to grasp again at the passion I once had at being in love with a Marine.
Semper Fi
Im so glad that you have seen that the passion for the corps was gone. i may be young but i know surely married to the marines means married to the corps.
ReplyDelete"The Marine corps is his mistress and sometimes that bitch gets all the attention!"
Its so hard sometimes to be texting and all of sudden no texts til 5 am. its hard. but im so glad that you want the passion you once had back :)