I have work today, after two relaxing days off. I'm glad, though. I've been pretty bored. Jordan hasn't called in 3 days and it's starting to depress me. I need my Jordan fix.
I got this job at Petsmart a few weeks ago and so far, I like it a lot. It's my first job, so I went into it with little expectations. That probably turned out for the better. Anyway, Jordan wanted me to get a job because he realized that me sitting alone at home all day was hazardous to his bank account. Petsmart is roughly a 20 minute drive from home. I dont really mind it that much. I like the job. I like the money. It just scares me. Having a job makes me more and more independent. Something I'm not quite used to yet. I'm embracing my newfound freedom, but sometimes I do have to sit back and think about it.
Jordan comes home in 4 months. When he comes home, what am I going to do? Am I going to keep my job? Am I going to go back to exactly the same way I was before he left? The meek, dominated wife that obeyed her husband without hesitation? Could I even do that now? How is our relationship going to take the new me? As it starts to get closer and closer to November and I can almost see the finish line of this deployment, the butterflies of his homecoming are turning into knots of anticipation. I already know that something is going to change, the question, as it usually is: what is going to change?
I think that's the challenge when that time comes- finding the right balance between work and home if that's the path you choose to take... I find it hard sometimes to be independent yet a faithful loyal wife both at the same time. Keep us posted on what you do eventually decide- the extra money might be worth it, and if you like the job, keep it. At least you'd have something to do other than staying home and waiting for Jordan to get off work? But other people do choose to quit and not worry about working when their better half comes home. It is a tough decision to make when the time rolls around.
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