Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Pick it up, dust it off
I just had an emotional breakdown over a lawn mower. Its funny how small the trigger is, isn't it? The grass is getting long again and I want to mow the yard. Last time I mowed it, my friend from work came over and showed me how to start the lawn mower and how to put gas in it and how to check the oil and all that jazz, so I would be able to do it on my own next time. So, I found myself in my garage, trying to start the lawn mower, crying hysterically because it won't start and if it doesn't start, I don't know what to do. I'm all by myself, I don't have anyone to help me with all the shit that needs to be done, the outside light bulbs need to be changed and I'm too short to reach them on the stool we have, I need to get blinds for some of the windows in the house, but I don't know how to measure the windows to put them in. The filter in the fridge needs to be changed and I have no idea where it is. Little things. Little, stupid petty things that I should be able to handle on my own, but I'm ashamed to admit that I just can't. Then I get angry. I get angry at the situation, because its inconvenient, angry at myself for not being good enough to do them, and angry at Jordan for leaving me here in the situation. I feel too guilty to ask my friends husbands because even though they'd do it, I know the last thing they want to be doing is helping their wive's pathetic, lonely, friend with petty shit she should be able to handle.
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Aww, sweetie... did you try YouTube on how to start a lawnmower? I know it sounds silly, but when I get too upset to figure things out that I can't on my own, I look it up online. It's surprising what can be found on here! Good luck. ♥
ReplyDeleteLet me know when you have a day off. I can show you how to measure for blinds and I will help you find your fridge filter if you still havent. I am always home so just send me a message or a text and let me know.
ReplyDeleteAs for measuring for blinds, I think you just measure the width and length of the windows on the inside so you know how wide the blinds need to be and the length probably won't matter as long it's long enough (and for curtains it's the outside of window areas). I probably don't make much sense. Filter in fridge? I had no idea there is a filter in the fridge... Now I'm curious where it is too... You're not alone in that frustration- I wouldn't know how to start a lawn mower if I had to do that chore. You're not the only one who gets upset over the little petty things in life (I have my share too- ask Zach).
ReplyDeleteDo you have a tall ladder (I mean tall enough to reach the lights outside)? If not, then maybe it's time to invest in one so you can reach the lights... I have a 8 ft ladder but I don't live in your area so I can't really bring it over and help ya out (as much as I would love to help).
I went through four deployments with Robert. One thing I learned early on is how to do that little crap. Nothing makes YOU feel better than knowing you can hold down the fort. I'm free tomorrow (Friday), why dont we have lunch and I'll help you? Especially with the light bulbs, you know I don't need a ladder :P
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