I'm making it

A week has come and gone and for some reason I'm still alive and well. I don't feel it. I feel awful. I feel broken and sad and alone, but I look at my body and I think about my mind and well, here I am totally okay. I guess that's not bad. I'm supposed to be able to make it through this right? I just feel really isolated. Jordan is the only Marine over there, making me the only marine wife who's going through this deployment. I can find other marine wives who are going through deployments, no problem. but I sort of feel like I'm on my own here. I might be isolating myself on purpose for some reason as well. I don't know why, but when I figure it out, I'll let ya'll know.